Life & Death

Today was a really difficult day for my family. Our dog died today. There’s more to the story, but I don’t really feel up to recounting it. I’m just in a lot of pain right now. And all I know how to do is write about it because that’s what I do.

I’m experiencing so much grief right now, I don’t know how to keep myself from being consumed with it.

Grief is exploding from me
like molten lava. Translucent like
tears, burning a fiery trail
along my face. I hate
what I see, facing death
while watching you flee. How
can you stay if you already know
you don’t truly love me? Isn’t
it better to let me face death
alone? Isn’t it better to show me
that I’ll always face death alone?
I buried death in my own back yard
and already it’s starting to smell.
Loving you and needing you,
my own personal hell. Life and death
are in the choices we make. And
apparently I’ve chosen death.
That’s why I had to bury it. Alone.

Peace & Love,
Rosalind

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About Rosalind Guy

I'm broken & my soul is weary/ my weary soul rebels, fights/ anything & anyone who tries to heal me/I beat my head against a wall of memories/ trying hard to break free from the chain of memories/ I can only be free by saying it so/ i weave a necklace from words and finally/ I find freedom/ free free free. As you can see, words are powerful to me. As Maya Angelou said, words are wallpaper of the soul. I have lots of nightmarish memories that threaten to break me, but I learned a long time ago about the power of words. They can be used to heal and destroy anything that threatens to destroy the person. Words coupled with love have the power to save and heal. I am author of three books: Skinny Dipping in the Pool of Womanhood, Tattered Butterfly Wings, and Blues of a Love Junkie. I am a high school English teacher. I am a former reporter. I am a mother. I am a woman. I am a fierce advocate for those who cannot speak for themselves, those who's voices go unheard. Check out my Amazon author page at the following link: http://www.amazon.com/Rosalind-Guy/e/B00BGH5F88/ref=sr_ntt_srch_lnk_1?qid=1432491754&sr=8-1.
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