I always thought I was taking steps forward, chasing my dreams despite my fears. Then an opportunity came up to be a part of the Mid-South Book Festival, which took place today. I almost didn’t do it. My fears were so large, I didn’t even know I was fearful. I rarely shy away from honesty and I won’t now. I was afraid that no one would support me, that all the close friends and family who encourage me would be nowhere to be found. I was afraid that people would pick up my books, but put them back down.
It had become enough to be able to say that “The books aren’t selling as well as I’d like them to, but the people who have read them have always had very positive things to say.” And these weren’t people who were related to me in any way. These were complete strangers, people from as far away as the UK. I could tell myself I was headed in the right direction. I was on my path.
But today, I faced my fears. I looked my fear in the eyes and moved forward despite it. As someone told me yesterday, fear is nothing but a little baby rat with a bullhorn walking around screaming all the things you’re afraid to face. When you take the bullhorn away, you realize you have something so small, you can just step on it. Well, I stepped on it and I’m glad I did. Today, I made connections I never would have made from the safety of the shadows of my fears. I found out that people will support me not only in words, but they showed up. And I feel truly blessed.
I faced my fears and I’m glad I did. Now when I say every day do something that scares you because that’s how you know you’re headed the right way, finally, I’m speaking from experience.
I would like to thank everyone –and I do mean EVERYONE—who supported me today. Looking forward to April 2016. Big things are coming! But if I’d continued to hide behind my fears, I would still be standing stagnant, talking about what I want without doing anything to get it.
Peace & Love,