My Bastard Child

I strung my words together for you
helped you build a bridge to carry you away
from what was hurting you and then you cut my
vocal cords, left me speechless. Blood spilled
from where you stabbed me, aiming for my heart.
I held my neck trying to keep the blood from spilling
out. We both knew you were aiming for my heart
but you missed. Your aim has always been off.

After giving me a voice, you took away my reason
to live. Words have always been valuable to me.
I shared them with you thinking you would appreciate the gift
but you stole the words from my soul
and replaced them with pain. You neatly threaded pain
along the edges of my soul daring me to try and be whole
when you knew you’d stole the best part of me.

My womb is swollen with words
I’ve been forced to keep in.
Maybe one day I’ll give birth to those words
and get to hold my bastard child in my arms
and people will coo and tell me
what a good job I’ve done.
But we both know what they’ll be thinking
and maybe what they think is true.

Peace & Love,


About Rosalind Guy

I'm broken & my soul is weary/ my weary soul rebels, fights/ anything & anyone who tries to heal me/I beat my head against a wall of memories/ trying hard to break free from the chain of memories/ I can only be free by saying it so/ i weave a necklace from words and finally/ I find freedom/ free free free. As you can see, words are powerful to me. As Maya Angelou said, words are wallpaper of the soul. I have lots of nightmarish memories that threaten to break me, but I learned a long time ago about the power of words. They can be used to heal and destroy anything that threatens to destroy the person. Words coupled with love have the power to save and heal. I am author of three books: Skinny Dipping in the Pool of Womanhood, Tattered Butterfly Wings, and Blues of a Love Junkie. I am a high school English teacher. I am a former reporter. I am a mother. I am a woman. I am a fierce advocate for those who cannot speak for themselves, those who's voices go unheard. Check out my Amazon author page at the following link:
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