Existing

I’ve never belonged anywhere.
I’ve only existed in places.

Always surrounded by closed off spaces
That refused to yield to my presence.

Walls bearing recognizable faces.
Beguiling – I sought ways to enter.

And like loose change in a torn pocket
I got lost, ended up in places where

I was easily forgotten.

I seek hiding places now,
Crouching in corners,
Where I blend easily into shadow.

There is no place for me
Where I can simply be
And, in being, to belong.

My own skin sometimes
Feels artificial.

Swimming in fluid memories.

When trying to inject those memories fails
Sweat drenches my skin. Withdrawal is akin
To burning myself in the flames of yesterday.

The acid of memory is addictive.

I do not want to burn even if
My name might kiss the lips and singe the skin

For I will always be looking for ways in
As I try to force my way into yet another heart
That refuses to love me.

Peace & Love,
Rosalind

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About Rosalind Guy

I'm broken & my soul is weary/ my weary soul rebels, fights/ anything & anyone who tries to heal me/I beat my head against a wall of memories/ trying hard to break free from the chain of memories/ I can only be free by saying it so/ i weave a necklace from words and finally/ I find freedom/ free free free. As you can see, words are powerful to me. As Maya Angelou said, words are wallpaper of the soul. I have lots of nightmarish memories that threaten to break me, but I learned a long time ago about the power of words. They can be used to heal and destroy anything that threatens to destroy the person. Words coupled with love have the power to save and heal. I am author of three books: Skinny Dipping in the Pool of Womanhood, Tattered Butterfly Wings, and Blues of a Love Junkie. I am a high school English teacher. I am a former reporter. I am a mother. I am a woman. I am a fierce advocate for those who cannot speak for themselves, those who's voices go unheard. Check out my Amazon author page at the following link: http://www.amazon.com/Rosalind-Guy/e/B00BGH5F88/ref=sr_ntt_srch_lnk_1?qid=1432491754&sr=8-1.
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