The illusion shattered
like broken glass & the shards
You didn’t love me.
I went through life
being cut by the lies & rejection
that was your love.
Love should have come natural
it never came at all.
How did you escape undamaged?
How did you learn to escape loving me?
I spent years trying to
get you to fall in love
with me. I never was able to see
that you never loved yourself
You only knew how to bury yourself
in the folds of other people’s rejection of you.
You clung desperately
to temporary validation found
in the eyes of those who
avoided seeing you. Showing you love
as long as they needed something from you.
My dear Father, why couldn’t you see
the way loving you
always brought me such pain?
Why did you choose to cut me with your love
when I only wanted to
heal you with my love?
Didn’t you know my love was true?
Peace & Love,